It's not like me to blog often nowadays and so far i have not broken that habit.
But i know i used to blog quite often, just that i think i have either lost interest in recording down my daily/weekly/monthly exploits or more probably because i have nothing much to blog about.
Either i am working in the day or working out in the afternoon or lazing around at night. My insomnia's keeping me awake pretty much all night til about 3am although i am exhausted by work and exercise. Really, i cannot wait for poly to start for me.
But hey enough of complaining man, one should always look on the bright side, if there are none then look at your backside. Since you can't really see your backside, it means that whatever troubling you is a paradox, and paradoxes don't exist, therefore i conclude that trouble = gone. There, geng geng logic. Anw, carpe diem! Means seize the day in latin.
What normally happens to me daily? Lemme see...
-Wakes up at 6am-
-Wash up and depending on time left groom( i pay much more attention to my hair now)-
-Take the @!$#! MRT to Toa Pa Yoh and reach my workplace at 7am-
-Restock on the fruits and veggies(my section) and argue with Mat that tottenham will win liverpool any other day, even if it means having to make Gomes knock out 6 of their players by punching them during corners lol*-
-Watch on as the workplace politics fly here and there. I don't take sides, and it's a wise choice-
-10am is when i get really really busy, as that's when the deliveries start coming faster than sarah palin giving birth to her (over 9000!) children**-
-12am! Time to let off and small talk with the kelly girl hehe-
-Depending on my schedule, i will either eat with Mat and Vinnie, or go straight back to yishun to eat lunch-
-If having no appointments with company e.g. soccer, go straight home change into to-be-washed clothes-
-top up rabbits' water drip and make sure to stop Cookie humping Oreo and Oreo from humping Xiaobai haha.(vicious cycle, luckily xiaobai doesn't hump cookie or i will faint on the spot)-
-Depending on mood, i will do one of 3 things.-
-(1) Get out my bike and ride out as far as i can and be back by 4pm-
-The most common route i take is from yishun to jalan kayu to amk and back to yishun-
-(2) Whip out my lappy and do some work on my codewriting. Basically i will be so frustrated i will switch it off within an hour and a half and go play my psp-
-(3) Bring my personal bag down to the park and continue on my to-be-released-when-i'm-99-years-old book. When inspiration strikes i can write all day long. If not i will let the jogging pump some into me-
-(4) Occasionally i will do all 3, by riding to Sembawang Beach with my lappy in my personal bag, and just relax by the sand, sea, and breeze-
- Now i eat out more often, as my mum is working and dad is like working overseas. Granted, i have a lot more freedom now, but i still cannot shake off this feeling of that tiny little void in me-
-Mum, sis, older sis will be back by 8pm. Mum watches channel 52 and 54, sis plays with rabbit with older sis, i playing psp on the bed with Oreo on my head. When mum goes away i cop the remote and start watching AXN and Sports Channel. Before 'turning in' i glimpse at channel news asia for latest news i didn't see in today's The Newpaper-
-this is when my insomnia kicks in. No matter how i try to sleep i cannot. And did i mention that whenever i force myself to sleep and succeed i have nightmares. So eventually i gave up and just lie on my bed thinking. I think about a lot of things. Heck, i think i spend about 3 hours a day just closing my eyes, not sleeping, but thinking. Normally i will start to fantasize in my little dream world, where i daydream of being a nomad hunter like Monster Hunter, or one of those save the girl scenarios, and even how like in a zombie epidemic what i will go and do, where to hold up and barricade and survive. Yeah, crazy stuff, i know, but it's good to just think you know? But eventually i come back into reality and start to worry about my future. Will i be able to get into poly? Yes, i can but what if i cannot? And if i could will i fit in? Being naive and of more than slightly optimistic nature, i will push all these thoughts away, but they will always linger and eat away at my defenses, my dreamworld.
I reminisce about the old times, how i used to play the clown in primary school, there was this case of an old friend of mine liking the assistant head prefect, and he brought her a drink, which she declined, which i promptly downed and ran away being chased by him while the others roared in approval. Hahahaha but then i started noticing the existence of girls, and my (in my own words) raging hormones (hahahhaha) started acting up. So by the time i entered secondary school, i was, what brendon termed, shy as ****. If a girl started treating me nice i would fall for her in a crush, to that sort of extent. After several mishaps along the way in sec 1 and 2 when i was very confused about my personality, as i behaved very differently in different company. I was like, wearing a mask for every occasion, you know? But those were good times, i admit. I remember when the canteen closed down and everyone hated the temp canteen, i made sandwiches and drinks and brought them to school to sell to my dear old class, 2/6. My mum cooked carrot cake, which was all snapped up within recess. Another incident was when i brought my rubber chicken and duck to school. Brendon hung the chicken at the screen and threw the duck to the construction site. And flushed tweety bird down the toilet bowl where it got stuck and clogged the pipes haha. We were such retarded imbeciles man. But heck, we had lotsa fun, as a class.
Streaming. Sec 3. I distinctly remember posting day, as that was the day i found out, to my absolute horror, that i was going to 4/4.
*peers at list*
...
only me and weian...
plus cindy bliss edna michelle etc.
ABISH.
The sight of brendon laughing and rolling around on the floor will be forever seared into my memories when he found out that jia hao was in 4/4 too. They have a rivalry together since NCC sec 1, so i wasn't surprised. Maybe he was just relieved. But jh turned out ok as a friend in the end. I mean, yeah, ok, the glass incident pissed me off and as anyone who knows me should know i dun get pissed off easily, i'm more of a let's be friends even tho you are capulet and i am montague kind of guy. But looking back on hindsight, let's just say that everyone has their flaws and kinks, and who's to say that you won't do the exact same thing? And like what i like to say, it's never too late to forgive and it's never too early to forget, so let's just carry on with life. Life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Life gives you limes, you make lime juice. Life gives you sh!t... You feed your plants like how i dispose of my rabbit litter.
3/4 was... i dunno, passive at the start i guess? Only a certain few joined the community we created online and even though we posted stuff like the kway chup uncle going crazy saying EAT MY KWAY EAT MY KWAY, which we like posted as if we were smsing lol, eventually it got less active and died a natural death-faded away.
Being the CLASS SPIRIT MUST EXIST SOMEHOW guy i always tried to organize bbqs, outings, chalets etc... I did the same for every class i got into, and i doubt that will change when i get into poly. I did suffer as a result of course, as any other organizer knows it's a pain in the @ss to do all these yet i still find it enjoyable to be able to like just get together and have fun, makes all the hassle and annoyance go away planning ya know(even though the 2009 new year thing was an utter disaster and i was crushed, i must still apologise to the people i made step out of their houses for nothing. For that i am deeply sorry). Anw, we somehow got along, with funny interesting incidents happening along the way (who can ever forget Mrs Sin, heck she calls me Cheng An, might as well call me Cheng Tng and eat me up sia haha), with some rather sad moments for me sob sob lol. But as they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and even though it wasn't that big or small a deal, these good times and bad times strengthen you for the future. Bad times for you to learn from, and good times for you to fall back on. yeah.
Ahh, NDP 2006. I am proud to serve my country no matter how small my contribution might be. And NDP 2008 too, this time as a cheerleader wahahaha! Don't think just because i'm small sized doesn't mean i'm not strong ok? hahaha.
... To conclude, i would say that those times were memorable, some happy some sad but all unforgettable. And i would like to devote this little section to the people in 4/4 who changed my life just by being in the same class as me then, as most likely i would never be seeing you guys ever again, ya?
To the people of 4/4 07, you guys may not be perfect, you girls may not be flawless, but what would 4/4 be without you all? A person once said:"4/4? What 4/4?"
I replied:" Even if there's no 4/4, i would try my best to make 4/4, and even if i fail in your eyes, i know deep down there was a bond, no matter how small and tiny it was, between each and everyone of us."
If i am making you, the reader, most likely a 4/4, sick by being over dramatic, let me tell you, i won't even be bothered to assure you, that these are from the bottom of my heart. There are a lot of memories that i would like to share but i know some are sad ones for others and having once made the same mistake i swore never to make others sad again. And as i type i realise that not everyone will feel this way, as i feel about 4/4. And that my poly term's up ahead, and that i need to start anew, i need to let certain parts of 4/4 go, certain feelings, certain memories, certain people. That i am sure that as the years go by we get to know more people and forge new bonds, these things will slowly fade, but deep down, in our hearts, we will take refuge in them when the need arises...
Lastly, i would like to thank a few 4/4 people, and as i know i have not been updating my blog very few ppl have come to visit, which is why i am just going to write it down and let all these go before i go abroad.
Firstly, i would like to thank Terence, when i first met you i thought you were crazy, but heck ahaha, you are one fine friend. I can be sure that when my back's to the wall, you will come to help me, and i will surely help you when the need arises.
Secondly, thank you Lee Teck and Kia Woon for just being there to listen as i poured my troubles to you two online, and for that i am grateful.
Thirdly, arigato MC, for being there when i was confronted, for sticking with me even though it was of no connection to you, i really appreciate it.
Fourth, thanks pete, for sharing the burden of booking the chalet and payment and everything. And for coming to my 1st ever choir concert with MC and Adi =]
Fifth, xie xie ni sing ee, for faithfully bring the ball home after soccer.
Lastly, hui ting, i would like to say sorry that i caused a bit of trouble for you back then, and that i will always have a soft spot for you as a friend, maybe we will meet each other when you become your business woman overseas then haha.
Signing out,
yours sincerely,
and faithfully,
ever so comic,
gengan